In this update I will cover another attempt to come off my medication and all the positive things that that created (although I was unsuccessful) and my trip to GSIC UK.
Try #7 – Mission Impossible
I have a long history of trying to stop the only medication that I am on – a mental drug that really changed my life. Back a few weeks ago, I was still really excited about being off of it, so when God seemed to suggest that I should stop it and that I would be successful this time, I jumped on board.
I was planning on phasing it out, but voices encouraged me to go cold turkey, so I agreed.
The first five days, it seemed that things improved. The next five days or so were really not that bad. Throughout the 12 days or so I was off the drug, I was laughing and having a good time. Toward the end, I was crying, and I didn’t understand why. So maybe I have bipolar as my diagnosis indicates.
I was not having a hard time as I sometimes have on the drug. I found pleasure in sitting and recollecting past events in my life and trying to find some meaning in them. Computer usage was reduced.
Overall, it was not a bad experience. The last time I tried to stop taking the drug, as written about here ( Plan To Come Off My Longtime Hard Mental Drug ), it was worse and I was hospitalized.
My appetite pretty much disappeared toward the end. Since I abruptly stopped, withdrawal symptoms were there like nausea, which made it harder to eat.
I was losing about a pound a day – I recorded being down 9 pounds at one point in the span of less than 12 days.
I restarted since I just felt things were getting out of control. I don’t plan to do this again, I feel fine taking this medication.
Things I Learned
I felt like I was able to channel information from somewhere. If I started to investigate somethings in my life, I was just able to make progress on understanding what happened – information was coming from somewhere.
This one will have a benefit being written about. Part of it may be hallucination, but the other part should be useful.
Oh, yeah, I forgot to mention that I had trouble staying asleep. On average I woke up at 3am and did not fall asleep until 6am until about 7am. Maybe there was a night that I stayed up most of it.
Samson Option
One of these nights, a female voice started with “Without Nataru”. She was repeating it and I at first could not understand what she was saying. Further inquiry and a story started to take shape. Again, this may be hallucination – but maybe not.
She was saying that we were without Nataru or the name of our galaxy. An explosion had taken it out and Earth was the only living planet left alive. This reminded me of the Bible narrative that Earth was the only planet in creation. God has preserved us.
I follow Elena Danaan, and she was reporting on the Galactic Federation of Worlds alliance destroying Nebu – a Grey type of aliens, sometime back – recently. They were a hive-based life form, and the GFW of had been able to infect the hive and cause them to self-destruct.
Recently, she reported that another alien species came across a huge fleet of spacecraft, within the Orion nebula, in a dimensional bubble. Since they were in a dimensional bubble, they were not directly visible.
Somehow, this alien race was able to find them. They came to the GFW and told them that they had some information about a huge armada of spaceships with millions of humanoids onboard.
GFW was able to determine that there were millions, maybe hundreds of millions of humanoids – but that they did not have a soul they had an AI type of an intelligence.
The Nebu, apparently, had planned to transport these humanoids to Earth to try to destroy it somehow – like by infiltration. That never happened and they were later, as mentioned, themselves destroyed.
The key part is that the finding alien race had detected that these ships contained anti-matter warheads embedded in the hulls. This was crucial information, because if this was not detected and mentioned, the GFW might have tried pulling these ships outside of the dimensional bubble and maybe saving the occupants.
This would have been a tragic mistake, because the amount of antimatter that they all contained was enough to obliterate the entire galaxy or even the universe if timed correctly.
The Nataru alliance decided to destroy this armada inside the dimensional bubble. This would not impact anything in our galaxy and the bubble collapsed after the detonation.
The GFW of worlds is (and maybe was!) in the process of destroying another alien race called the Ciakharr, a reptilian race that was causing a lot of problems in the galaxy. Enough races joined the GFW alliance to force them from their occupied worlds and eventually they were destroyed to an extent that their headquarters were sieged. But before that, the Ciakharr evacuated to their spacecraft and were roaming the galaxy with technology that makes them almost impossible to detect.
Here’s what I realized after the she-voice said that the galaxy is gone (although the planets remained intact – by a neutron like weapon).
What if the Ciakharr had a doomsday like weapon that could destroy almost all the lifeforms in the galaxy. Pushed to extreme difficulty and suffering, they engaged it. Certainly, the Nebu were capable of a similar thing. Was the experience with Nebu a warning sign to GFW that, hey guys, maybe you should be negotiating with powerful races in the galaxy before trying to annihilate them. It seemed the GFW missed this sign. To me this makes the GFW to be very reckless and stupid.
We just may be living in a galaxy (or universe) where our planet or solar system may be alone with life. Sure, you may question, you were hallucinating when coming off your mental med with what the voice was saying. But putting some simple information together, it may be plausible that this thing can happen.
Source Disconnect?
The Source or also known as God, is the creator of all life. We are pieces of him. According to Ra (The Law of One) he is unknowable.
Well, maybe I tried to figure him out.
One day, recently, maybe in late April, I was sitting outside. I tried to figure out how I was able to see things, where was I? Was I seeing things from the Source? As I worked back from what I was seeing in my eyes, I saw that there was golden energy. This must be the source, I think I thought. I tried to work further backwards into the source, around that time, I felt the golden light leave my head. Was I trying to figure out the Source – who is unknowable – and it had to leave me? Did I disconnect from the Source? This may be the case.
As I was thinking about this, I saw the golden light in the sky. This was a sign to me that the source had left being inside of me and moved to the outside of me. It was still there – outside – never fully leaving me.
Funny, for some reason, as I was at the GSIC UK event, I overheard a person discussing the Source with someone. Some alien race had willfully disconnected from the Source and now they had to find energy elsewhere. Maybe this is what I will have to be doing eventually.
After the possible Source disconnect, a voice said that I am needed as a leader quickly. Are they good leaders? Maybe there is more to this.
GSIC UK
GSIC (Galactic Spiritual Informers Connection) puts together conferences (or connections) across the world. They deal with ET information, spiritual topics (like angels and demons) and other important information.
I decided to go to one recently in the UK. I thought it was a bad idea, but I felt that it was important for me to go there anyway.
The conference went well. I got to see Elena Danaan in person (I was surprised to see how short and thin she is) and other people that I often view on YouTube.
The voices mislead me into thinking that some dangerous or criminal event would hurt people there, like from the deep state, but that eventually never happened. Even with this danger I decided to go anyway. I find this unfortunate that this deception occupied my mind a lot of time here and there – when there was nothing to worry about.
I learned a lot about each presenter, stuff you don’t learn watching on YouTube. I also got some chances to talk to people there that I really covet.
Today, I decided to go to the next one in the USA in September and have made all the bookings.