Death is something scorned and abhorred by many people. However, does spiritual death serve a useful purpose?
As I walked into my therapist’s office this morning, God told me: “You will die” (in Ukrainian). Darn, I thought, something will unfortunately lead me to spiritual death with this therapist! God is not giving me any warning signs that I should stop seeing her, so that is interesting.
As the session progressed, I saw a connection between me and the world (or something) disappear, in an uncanny way. Maybe this connection could not be restored again.
I saw/felt it before, when I was coming off my medication about a year ago (Plan To Come Off My Longtime Hard Mental Drug). Here it is: “Noticing that the bridges that were made with the medication are disappearing – unsettling”
Sometime after I left the appointment, it hit me that maybe this was me dying. So that got me thinking about death.
Beneficial
So am I slowly dying and not realizing it? Is it bad? I am not so sure.
I recall an experience I had, maybe a decade ago, when I visited my parents’ place for vacation. Think I did something and that really caused me to go into a spiral. I was hurt, trying to stabilize my weather and it was turning into an emergency. Then I remembered that as a Christian, we are dead to sin or the world. So, I called for death. Suddenly the crisis went away, the weather was fine and I felt great. Death there helped in a way that I did not understand at the time. And it serves as an example of its power to be beneficial in some way.
I started thinking, maybe I should eat unhealthily (like drink soft-drinks – and I am doing that now – cause I like them) and welcome spiritual death.
Afraid of excessive sound that is damaging to the spiritual body – not anymore. Resistant to hallucinogenic drugs because they also cause the same – well maybe not completely here.
Ways It Happens
I believe that spiritual death among people is more common than we think. It largely stems from something going wrong in intimate relationships, either stable ones or illegal types. From the lyrics: “there is no good way out”, or “hope has died”, or “death of your own soul” – some are more natural than others.
There is no way back with death once it has been created in the spirit. God has told me I am without hope – that I will never fully recover for a while back now. At first it felt like a doom statement but at least today I understand it more and am a little more at peace with it now.
I remember a few weeks ago seeing my brain from the outside and seeing a black piece of material. There is no way to fix it but it I believe it is still functional – just in a different way.
According to Revelations, the majority of the world will experience two deaths.
Is It Important
Is death something that will help me to serve in my future mission? Probably. Is that what I am waiting for during a lot of what I am going through? Likely is what I now think.
My mind goes back to Thor Han stating that the Deep State people are slowly dying and it would be a matter of time before it collapses. I thought to myself, maybe it is their plan to spiritually die.
All the sex trafficking they have done for the Deep State, especially the underage kind, likely is a fast track to death.
I think that Pope Francis spiritually died just before he physically passed away. A woman commented that a picture of him in the hospital, sitting, and from the back, was disturbing. Indeed it was. Was there a careful operation to cause this for him?
From the unwellness, to the repeated surgeries, it may have been going by the plan.
Today
As today progressed, after welcoming death, it remains one of my best days in a while. I experienced positive emotions. Ones that made the day worthwhile and the chores passable. It is hard to recall what happened earlier in the day with detail, but it was positive. I remember thinking this is just like I felt when I was younger, finding passion in life – something that I long ago lost.
When all other treatments fail maybe embracing the inevitable is the solution.