What follows is a rough diary that I have kept – initially just for myself that I just decided to publish.
4/1/2026
12:38 pm
Got up this morning, was deciding between doing laundry and walking. Eventually chose neither.
Sat in front of my computer and thought. Andrey(brother) called, discussed my diet and test results. Neither were good.
He is stopping by my place on April 24th at 11am as he travels to Carolina. We should have lunch.
Ate a bit and browsed on the computer. Not much interesting.
9:07 pm
Spent the day sitting in front of the computer – although using it only 25%. Watched some YouTube videos – there were helpful ones from various sources.
One claims that April 1 is when the waiting ends. In some ways the waiting, this evening has been really much better – I was busy with thoughts and things to do. The next period is a turning point – according to this source.
Other videos were encouraging. One from Last Days about him being in heaven day after rapture, really gave me a perspective about life here on earth – that it can be surmountable and saving can be easy. My story is different than his.
God had me change the sex resolution – it is now allowed. As much as I currently don’t care for it, I will look positively upon future opportunities. It seems that it is survivable.
God guidance is to avoid space travel. It is not safe for me. I think Galactic Federation, once I am in space, or other, would have less restrictions on doing me harm. They, or others, may be against me.
Sexual resolution is back in force. My mistake.
4/2/2026
3:43 pm
Did laundry in the morning. Had buckwheat kasha with milk for lunch.
Then went out for a walk.
They were upsetting me with talk about being taken. I was really getting upset about that. God, the workers and such.
As I was walking, I passed a middle-aged good looking woman. I told myself I got to stay away from people like her.
I think something happened then that I didn’t expect. Like a falling. Later passed another woman near the middle point, and she was listening to a guy on double speed. She raised her hand when she passed me. This surprised me in some way.
Got me thinking that maybe “first one” may really happen. This would go in line with what the Bible told me when I asked the question on this topic, like a Lazarus’ death turned into a big PR story. It may well happen with me.
Visions on the walk were just as usual nothing impressive.
Came back, want to listen to one video on YT that I skipped over about David and what made the preacher cry. Not sure what else after that, maybe a game – God mentioned that earlier.
6:54 pm
No game. Games, video, do-ing (code word for interdimensional sex) are not recommended by God.
Watched some very encouraging YT channelers and prophetesses about me.
4/3/2026
8:11 am
Had some interesting dreams, only remember the last part of the last one.
Running after Andrey or “chris” through somebody’s backyard. He locks the gates. I wait there (minute or less) and the lady owner comes there after arriving home, at night, and says “wait” cause she has dogs. She unlock me and I continue on to my house. Very embarrassed.
So just got up.
11:51 am
Just came back from a walk. Feeling pretty good.
My HRV is up to 31-32. In the past it was always around 22 – so it is good news.
5:11 pm
Got up from a nap – felt exhausted before it.
Dad sent a few text messages on the solar system he put back together.
8:12 pm
Had buckwheat with milk for dinner. Mother called quickly and left to take care of stuff.
Listened to some music that I have in collections on PC. Helped. Was laying down earlier. Don’t have stuff interesting to do and also lack of energy doesn’t help.
4/13/2026
9:27pm
Stopped writing the diary because I thought that “moving in silence” was the safer route. Can’t imagine that it has been ten days already. Filled with regret but maybe it served a purpose.
Yesterday or the day before came across Freeya’s video about “shut tf in” which she means to stop using social media and start an ecommerce and post more. This hit me hard. I remembered a video Seema made about a month back about going off social media and posting more to be seen and found.
I started vlogging then but gave up.
So yesterday made two and today one video on me being the AC.
It hit me hard that I am running out of time and I am the only person who holds the destiny in my hands. “Meet your angels halfway” Freeya said.
Social media is inspiring but it is leaking my energy. Posting is not.
Reception is mixed and less than original videos, likely to me taking a break.
But it is needed for me to get found.
Second part on ecommerce, I need to get money. I thought it could be gotten other means, but it seems I have to lift myself by my bootstraps.
First thought I was led to go Amazon FBA but that was cancelled.
Ordered three books today, one on small businesses and two on FBA – which I may get little value out off.
Took a walk and had a conversation with the 4th density.
The message was go with your own shop not FBA. Your own shop is unlimited unlike Amazon’s.
This ecommerce thing has been vacillating. Yesterday it was not to be told, today it was but I think I need to go with it.
Led to buy a book by Elena titled Koldas. Got it today and started to read it tonight. Really good.
Mother called today, upset that I stopped diary – a little too much I think.
Called Dad and talked about the day – he had more to say.
4/14/2026
5:28 pm
Today was a good day in terms of YT views. One post has about 62 views, 5 comments and 1 like! Other ones are doing a little less but they are OK.
Made another YT post on What does it take to be the AC? – going over the main attack history. Still starting.
Went walking. God the books today. Plan on reading Elena Danaan’s book. Laundry tomorrow.
11:12 pm
Read half of the small business book. More on theories than the key actionable stuff – almost all junk that way. Not reading it any more.
Started on the smaller, small time guy on Amazon FBA and it had a lot of actionable, helpful stuff on suppliers and other stuff. Made notes.
There is another book on FBA that I got.
My video today on what it takes to be the Antichrist, didn’t do so well, only 3 views. Maybe for the better.
The video on where the AC, although about 2 min long, did so much better. 1 like and 1 dislike – which bothered me a bit, but I should make improvements going forward..
Already wrote the script on When will the Antichrist show up and plan on filming it tomorrow.
Read a bit of Koldas tonight. Really good stuff – some stuff hard to understand but hopefully some will stay.
4/17/2026
5:33 pm
Yesterday
Have been filming the last few days and posting on YouTube. Really has been working out well. Some much better than others. 15 comments on the where is AV video. Really impressive. Mostly positive comments.
Yesterday I got up and didn’t feel like posting a video. But instead, with guidance, I decided to write to Elena Danaan, her YT email address about a confession about Dos and how I got hospitalized with her YT video.
Spent like since the morning writing a long email about these topics. Hours of work.
Sent it, came back as spam. Added an attachment and it came back as undeliverable. The email address does not work.
That was hard to deal with.
So I really have no way of contacting her. Don’t care about it anymore – the experience got things off my chest.
I think I went walking afterwards.
Today
Today I published a video on How long it is until AC. Made the mistake of adding Biden’s story to it and the SOH McCarthy. Really going nowhere although maybe 6 hours and it has gotten 1 view – so at least one person saw the whole video.
Went walking after the video and came back at 1 pm. God was talking to me about filming on the trail. So I have made the arrangements to film tomorrow on “everything is digital” on the trail with my phone. Sound is poor so I may have to processes it afterwards.
Didn’t have much to do in the afternoon. Had another DO which went well. Laid down for a while. Didn’t nap.
4/18/2026
Had a hard time getting up. Was not feeling to well. Took a longer nap until ~11am.
God told me to no longer take walks. I am resolute on that.
Medication came in, but I don’t know if I will pick it up today.
6:39 pm
Made sweet potatoes with sourcrout for lunch. Called Andrey to arrange the meet up we are going to have.
If possible he may stop over at my place and then we head out to Chipotles. Or I meet him on the way if he is running late.
Sat around and laid as well, but I don’t think I slept after the long morning sleep in.
Dinner was cold leftover black beans, smoothie, and later pita bread and olives. Need to go to Costco Monday.
9:37 pm
Mother called and we talked a bit about Grisha, Dad and possibly a nuke station in Rochester being considered.
Need to call her more.
Made fries for dinner since that was a call and I was getting hungry. Need to make dinners always – small ones backfire.
God called me a changeling. The implications make me excited and happy for the future.
Walking is now encouraged – happy for this (God said it) but curious about his tactics.
4/19/2026
4:39 pm
Went walking and filmed “you can be predicted because everything is digital” during the walk with my phone. YT did a good first send out but it is being slow picked up. Seems I need to add AC to everything.
Laid down. God reminded me to do a blog post, which I am now doing.
4/20/2026
8:58pm
Finished the post yesterday. Actually went pretty long titled: “Locking the f*** in and getting off social media”
Today, got up, showered and went walking. On the way recorded a video on “Are there any benefits of the Antichrist”.
The camera moved a lot so I have a plan to use the left hand to hold the paper instead of doing everything in the right hand.
The post is okay – not viral material, but not the 2nd or 3rd least performing one I have. 208 impressions with 9 views.
Then I got my first real comment on my blog to the post that I published yesterday. I first interpreted it to be negative, but it really is positive. “~You may be a Targeted Person but you are not a schizo. / You are not the antichrist so manage your ego some other way”. I approved it.
Went through my log history on the blog traces and the first time I didn’t find anything. I relooked at it today, (logs already couple of days old) found an IP doing legit blog reads, more than a couple posts.
The guy who commented probably had a few posts read already.
I have been seeing more increased blog post reads lately, but attributed it to bots – but I may have been wrong.
After post, stayed in doors. Felt triggered by the workers and did a DO as a he. Was told it was a tryst. For the first time ever this partner took energy from me. Fine with that. Would have preferred if she contacted me – but I know good luck with that.
Running out of some stuff and dinner suffered because of that. Going to Costco and Walgreens tomorrow. Planning on recording “What the Bible Says About the Antichrist”. Already written and posting it shortly after that.
I guess that will be it.
4/21/2026
Costco, walk, another video, AI suggested not so good, another video written also another published today so two. Written on hospital stay.
4/24/2026
Time seems to go slow, but the days on this diary run so fast. Last post was three days ago and it feels like yesterday.
What AI suggested last post did rather well. My last video on the 21st was the worst yet. Only 1 view. “How the Antichrist saved the world” sometimes the algo limits the reach or doesn’t try as hard.
On the AI video, the algorithm went long on got a good amount of views.
Ok.
22nd was the psych appt. He looked frazzled – I think the medical system is killing the white men doctors – to much sickness from patients prob.
We talked about a olanzapine combo drug, brand name and not covered by my ins. I don’t care for it. Voices telling me that I will lose my belly. Looking forward to it.
Also discussed if I am looking for work. Asked if I am being frugal I said no. Left on good terms – next one in two months.
Today was the day Andrey came here. Got here earlier than planned -at around 6:30 am. I was up but had not showered. I went out to show him the way as he was driving up to my place. In a dark or gray Telsa.
He sat on my chair while I showered. We went to eat at around a little past 7 am. Right near my place. He was showing the Tesla self-driving – which worked pretty well.
Went inside the restaurant and they turned on the lights. At the cashier Andrey picked his menu – I had a hard time focusing. Didn’t understand why the lady stared at me when I said I want fries and nothing else. Andrey helped me choose some cabbage salad.
We ate and talked. He had some omelet, home fries, and toast.
Left and went back to my place, made caf coffee for him and me. He saw my book on Amazon FBA. He talked about his business days. Google Ads didn’t work well for him. I thought highly of them.
We took a selfie and he left with high spirits.
I left to take a walk. And my oh my what a walk it was. On the return portion the sun was hitting my pretty good. I started to feel my spirit come out of my shell and outside. It felt like very important and a life-changing experience. The sun was really doing something to me that made me feel well.
I came home and sat there hoping the work would continue. It did but it dwindled.
Called Dad and wished him a happy birthday. He talked about that his work outside. He received Andrey’s selfie with me. Talked briefly with Mom but she was busy.
Had lunch with beans and salsa.
Decided on walking again. I was dying for the same experience. I don’t think I walked twice in one day on the 6-mile loop but today I did.
The sun was not strong – it was a cloudy afternoon. Felt a little bit of the same but far from what it was earlier.
When I was back my feet did not throb – they felt like baby feet, just vibrant with health and wellness. Second time around they should be hurting here they were well. Encouraging.
Sat and thought – I have nothing else to do. Basically no computer usage with this social media fast.
Yesterday I got another call to get a TV. I have been hearing this regularly. So decided to just buy a TV at 9pm as I was already in bed.
Spent around $800 on a 48 inch OLED from LG. Should just fit into the opening on my wall.
Didn’t occur to me to check the depth of it and it is about an 1 inch oversized.
First thought of buying a tv cabinet, then a cart but later checked that it has a flat base so it is forgiving. If it had a fork base that may not work. So hopefully it will fit in and stay.
I don’t know if I am allowed to watch it during this fast. But the long term plan is YouTube TV cable.
Just don’t have the energy or the same spirit to Vlog. Was really in the spirit until the Psych appt. Something happened there – maybe me asking to shake his hand or who knows what – but I left there not the same. It continued until now.
I don’t have the passion for writing, filming anymore. Just better not done at this situation so I just wait.
God is calling me to write – but it just occurred to me that it may be just my diary – not vlogging. God I gotta keep up with this.
My blog looks like it may have a few people who read some stuff or a lot.
Looked through with my custom analytic tool and found one person doing quite a bit of article reading. There is a ton of reads on JetPack analytics – at first I thought it was bots but it has stopped dead in its track for a couple days now – so maybe not bots – bots would continue.
ONE REAL COMMENT too!!!! At first I thought it was offensive but it was not. He was being nice.
| Select comment | You may be a Targeted Individual not a schizo. You are not The Antichrist, so find another way to manage your ego. https://therantichrst.blogspot.com/ |
Can you believe the 66.66 he apparently writes a blog on the rantichrist.
4/25/2026
6:36 pm
Today was mostly indoors. TV was supposed to arrive so I didn’t go walking. Spent some time waiting and playing Starcraft 1.
Finally after oh so much staring at the map with the driver, the wait was over at around 3 pm.
Got the TV setup, had to reference a YouTube video – but only a minute, so my fast I hope is not disturbed.
Had potatoes and Brussel sprouts for lunch and fries for dinner.
Laid down and was tempted or more like addicted to do the DO. Was warned that this one would be bad and to pray. Did and did the DO.
Was it the same one, woman, as the last time – are we bonded? Told that it would lead to real life meetings, maybe.
Got up and maybe or maybe not play a game.
A little of Starcraft Brood War – but like 15 mins and gave up. Still thinking if to return. Laid in bed after the game – guess still have an issue finding things to do.
4/26/2026
10:19 am
Played Starfield for a few hours into around 11:30 am, yesterday.
This morning slept in, felt tired, made coffee and just sitting at the computer.
10:54 am
Making rice (+ salsa and avocados) for lunch.
11:45 pm
Played Starfield for the better portion of the day. Went from good to okay to sometimes is there anything better to do but there was not.
The exercise is beneficial.
Laid on my bed after being tired and talking to Andrey (who is on his way back here) and felt that the hand workers were really close and their movements quickly healing things. Feeling cleared on several occasions, empty in a good way.
Andrey should be here a little after 12 am.
Mother called earlier too and asked that Andrey spend the night here which he agreed.
4/27/2026
Andrey woke me up at around 6:30 am this morning. I got up made caf coffee and watched him as he cleaned himself and we chatted a few minutes.
He left and we hugged. I really relished the hug later because it was in a very precious time for me. We are both doing well and the future is looking good too.
I felt pretty good.
Went walking at around 9 am. Decided against laundry or shopping -those can wait.
The walk at times was really good. Felt my heart go orgasmic once – a first where it hurts or stumbles. Felt the roots of my teeth in a good way.
Came back home and making potatoes and brussels sprouts for lunch.
Waiting on Elena’s Seeders book to arrive today. Hope don’t have to play Starfield – but it does pass the time and is a mental exercise.
Andrey being here was a good time because I was feeling better and clearer.
4:33 pm
After walk, did a lot of sitting and reminiscing about things. Waiting for Elena’s books to come in. Didn’t want to play StarField – for various reasons – maybe later today – but the books should be in by then.
Feeling really hyped – kind of blissful. Door open and spending time just sitting at my desk and preventing the computer from going to sleep. Refreshing Amazon Delivery status pretty often.
[not sure where]Don’t feel like walking and it might rain. I don’t have an umbrella.
April 28 2026
8:31 am
Yesterday, the books arrived but I quickly lost interest in reading the first one after a few pages. Laid down.
Called Dad, a 10 min chat
Today got up by myself at 6:30 and staid up. Had a shower, made caf coffee. And went to do laundry. That is almost completing.
10:41 am
Came back from laundry. Sat and decided to read Elena’s We Will Never Let You Down. Read several chapters – but taking a break – maybe it is not that interesting – but this is not over.
5:27 pm
Went walking at Julington Durbin Preserve. Was pretty good.
God is endlessly murdering me with the phrase: “Write”. Sometimes it’s too much and I lash out at him. I don’t have the passion anymore for YouTube – unless I had really important information that would give me a bigger reach. Right now it is a non-starter.
X is worse much worse and is off limits because of the fast. My blog is still not time. Maybe he means the diary which is the only thing I am capable right now.
As I was laying on my bed earlier – there was a smell in the room – public laundry spot has its big disadvantages but I am told to stick with it.
Anyways as he asked me to write for the zillionth time, I had a clearing that only briefly lasted that would have been a game changer when it comes to self-worth and writing.
8:19 pm
When I was laying in my bed, and God asked me to write, I went on a long charade, well where and what to or something like that.
On the next occasion out of my side there entered my field of vision this being, like same or bigger than me and he told God to please keep the peace. It felt as if these beings were really in control and God was like a puppet or a robot. This may be the second time I heard or seen them. Really looking to more from them, but they are something else.
Been reading and reflecting on We Will Never Let You Down book. It so far has been Val Thor, an interview that Elena has with him.
There is one thing that has stunned me. He like the rest of the galaxy don’t believe in religion or Jesus and such. Not cool. There are profound truths in the Bible like Rapture that I believe they will be hard pressed to explain – we are not dealing with fiction or a simple construct of the race.
So I thought more. He really has a big blind spot. I came across a quote from a prophet on YouTube that aliens are fallen angels. Greys called themselves demons – maybe there is a positive fallen angel.
So how far does it go? I am reminded of a quote of a Christian seeing himself in the end of humanities time with Christ coming to win over the Beast and he said that “We are the most powerful army in creation”
Creation he means endless universes I believe. I could need help here but it is a big discussion I need to have with some aliens but the answers I am looking for may not come from them – they may be limited.
8:51 pm
I am getting told of “You will soon need doctors”. This time unlike others I was told that I will need a gun. Does this mean that someone shoots me or else and I need doctor’s care? I think it does.
I have been getting told that I need a gun. That may be prohibitive for a person like me with an intense mental history. I don’t think I will pass a background check – I have been psych admitted against my will multiple times.
Is it worth getting an illegal gun? What will happen in an event that I have to use it? Choices and choices – I am getting told that it may come from a boyfriend of a girlfriend I date.
I don’t like guns and it is a decision that I would like not to have to make.
10:14 pm
Went to bed and had an exchanged with God. Again problems – he says a fragment and I ask him what is the rest – he doesn’t respond and I get exhausted trying to pry from him his thought.
Except this time, as I was asking him I saw energy leave me. I am pretty sure this is what a YT channeller was saying that: “You are still leaking energy”. So it doesn’t just happen with me watching social videos but it is somehow a fault of my soul that it is leaking energy and leaving me exhausted.
This needs to be fixed and I can’t always see it and it may just be beyond my abilities – I may have to wait until “the workers” get to this.
The other part is that I am not learning patterns or anything I think.
To think that I go through these repetitions with God and still repeat myself and expect a different response from him is just unfathomable. I am not learning my lessons.
I tried to think when did I lose the ability to learn – sometime after I am not sure here. But it may be the reason that I am getting dreams about failing classes and recently a final exam that an ending that I don’t know to.
Fortunately I was told that this will be fixed.
10:56 pm
I am getting told pretty regularly that I will be on “CNN”. Other YT channellers also mention me being in the headlines this year. Isn’t this like almost unbelievable? I believe it and look forward to it.
Back in Rochester, when I was debating the sexual resolution, I asked the Bible by randomly opening it.
It came to a passage on Lazarus, where he dies and is resurrected and gains massive publicity.
I took it as the dangerous act of me dating someone for the first time ( a feared death scenario) I would survive and from that date gain massive publicity.
I really hope that the first date is organic and not being taken and then it – but then way back I was told that it is the only way it will happen.
11:13 pm
I just felt a couple of generational curses break. I am told I was allowed this body just because of me able to do this for my ancestors.
Oh my ancestors – what attention and even respect are you going to get from this permission.
11:46 pm
I am reminded that dealings with the KGB are in my future – something that I was surprised with. I would have preferred something like CIA or NSA but that is not mentioned.
I am closer to Russians genetically and culturally though I believe I will be the reason they lose in Ukraine – so I don’t understand why they would want to have anything positive to do with me.
11:53 pm
I am being warned that a famine is coming. I am stocking up although God once said it would go to waste – but better be safe than sorry.
Nukes will be used in Jacksonville – so hopefully I will be gone before then.
11:56 pm
In Koldas, Ea is said to be able to stop armies by himself.
I think to my dealings with him. I remember some year, I tweeted about it, when I had an interdimensional date with Elena and maybe him – he was putting these tiny handcuffs on my hands. Felt really disturbing.
12:01 am
Am told there will be many women here – likely for dates. I really hope that I will be able to stay here at least until the lease runs out.
First I don’t really care for other places and am not ready for them.
Second breaking the lease would be undesirable.
This is the place I call home and it really needs to be appreciated.
4/29/2026
What a unusual day yesterday – ended with much writing.
Got up at 6:30 am – naturally even though I went to sleep late yesterday. Second day in a row
Sat at the computer and keep getting calls to “write”.
Today is going to be hot and do I want to go walking?
7:48 am
So done filming – waiting until the next round
HRV is bad again – it seems to be between 19 – 27 but better than what was regular before: 22
8:27 am
Going walking
2:15 pm
The walk was like previous ones, started with great spirits and feeling great – but toward the end – feeling like normal.
Had music playing all the way on my phone. Mother called me twice and I didn’t hear her. Just saw the voicemail when I was finishing up my walk.
Called her when I was back home. She was already worried .
She talked about a few things, memories from Ukraine and such.
Made myself tofu and then tofu in a smoothie. Was pretty good.
God wanted me to play a game but I didn’t feel like it. Laid down and fell asleep, just awoke right now.
For the first time ever I was told an event and a time when it will happen.
Was told that I “will mate in June”. This will not be a setup and will be orchestrated by God. Taking will happen the same month – the order like I was told way back.
4:07 pm
FUCK FUCK FUCK
Been talking to my guides about what comes next and stuff like that. Went to lay on my bed and keep thinking. Until a voice within me mentioned something about the mental drug.
That is when it hit me, when they take me they will stop the mental drug. It is intended to be this way for good.
So the keeping of me is the best way to get me off the mental drug – a month is how long I am told I will be kept – that is how long the main withdrawal will take.
Supervision, but I wouldn’t rule out dating there to help with the symptoms.
I cannot tell you how earthshattering this will be. The olanzapine is holding my spiritual world tied behind my back. I will be exposed to a massive new world. Lose a lot of weight and be off of it for good.
I believe that I won’t see my psychiatrist again – next apt is in late June.
5:44 pm
My thoughts went to my digital accounts – would I lose them? This depends on how I am taken and how long I am kept.
I could go willingly or they may not ask. If the latter then is it outside of my house or in. The former might lose my phone and the accounts. I really need to keep my digital accounts – email and such…
This is the biggest hiccup and I hope it has been planned mercifully. As long as my phone is preserved then I am good.
7:06 pm
The excitement of the day is over. Maybe it was the caffeine earlier.
Best case scenario I think things will go is that I am taken from here, my home and go willingly. All my possessions remain here and I am returned before my possessions are vacated due to eviction. As much as I don’t like eviction, I don’t think it may be avoidable due to missing a payment and extra time after that. Sure I hope it can be then things will be really smooth and consequent less.
So I have a month + a little more to wait before the fun starts – doable – I won’t be going anywhere.
The social media fast is adding to the hardship. I am not using social media and the conventional media. This makes for a harder time. Got a TV but can’t watch it for the same.
Didn’t play video game today ( okay a minute) and really did not read either – didn’t care for either.
For the most part just sitting, thinking and waiting.
I imagined how the process will play out: I am taken, say from my apartment.
Girlfriend is here or not can’t be sure.
Door is left unlocked.
Parents call and I don’t answer. They immediately become worried. A day and it is a crisis.
Andrey may be asked to check up on me – I don’t know if he will be travelling at that time. He may come and confirm I am gone.
Parents will call the police and the missing person’s report fill be filed. I likely will be labeled as having a mental illness.
And then the wait begins.
I am not sure but maybe it escalates to CNN. It may be unusual for them to get involved in local missing cases but they may make an exception here. Afterall I am told I will be on CNN so this may be it.
I am held somewhere – I won’t know where. The long withdrawal process from the mental meds begins. I mean this would be the best cases scenario – I am not sure here. And this is probably the only reason to keep me confined for a month. Sure there are other reasons but I hope this one is not avoided.
My mother suspected that I may be able to come off the medication if I marry – something about a woman that may help me. I will need a clear mind to handle the media after my return – it may continue well after I come back.
I likely will face an eviction coming back – maybe it can be avoided maybe not.
With an eviction I likely will not be able to rent again.
I am told by channellers that I may get financial assistance afterwards. Maybe it is some sort of a job by the previous group. This would be important.
God has been bothering me to sign something. It may happen during the hold. I will do everything I can to sign that document and keep the agreement that it holds.
After that I don’t really have to much information on what comes. Oh, I am supposed to be in space this year.
Tons of dating and finding ways to keep the media attention.
In my visions when walking, I saw that I would be on some resort vacation this year, move to a house that I likely own – because it had a shed, get a new car. If I get a lot of money or earn it I am looking at getting a Cybertruck.
I at some point win the lottery – maybe by seeing the future.
I think that I will get “video” this year – the real time 4th dimensional video feed from various location around the solar system.
I hope the girlfriend comes in May – so the hard wait is lessened. While I hope not, I saw that the soul girlfriend (channellers predict) that is supposed to come may involve her getting pregnant unintentionally – because when I was thinking about this and closed my eyes I saw a DNA strand.
7:50 pm
Renewed hosting for my blog for another year. Primetime for it is coming and I don’t want to give up now.
8:21 pm
Having a hard time – I don’t know why. Wishing video gets here now. Maybe tomorrow morning will be better.
I really need to go to the news – something that may alleviate the hard time. But hell it is at least 13 days away.
4/30/2026
9:08 am
Taking a walk this morning, almost halfway.
Going okay. Thinking about the taking and all.
The thing they are saying is that eventually I will get HIV.
I know it is within their power to save me from this, but they seem to want it. What a reasoning.
10 am
I will get “video” because I am told, and often, that I will lose it. Maybe to dating – to my current dismay. But it will come back for eternity.
10:24 am
I have been told recently that I will have meetings or dealings with the reptilian alien race Ciakahrr.
I was rooting for them in the galactic war against the Galactic Federation but they lost.
11:17 am
Watched yesterday Unfamiliar – a couple episodes – on my new TV. Entertainment is allowed during this period – I was told. I would like to watch news but it will have to wait.
Had Tofu, frozen fruit and bread for lunch. Am told that I will be a carnivore in the future to my dismay – but at least for now I can be a vegan.
11:21 am
Am told that I will date Ciakahrrs.
Might just have made contact with one, telepathically.
5:36 pm
The word KGB includes American ones because that is to whom they are referring to my takers. Speaking in Ukrainian language the term may be used broadly.
5:46 pm
I have been looking into getting a gun but that may not be realistic. Looked into private security – may soon be possible especially and necessary with the publicity coming.
I was thinking what to say to the guards, if you can’t shoot the shooter in time, you stop the bullet. But then I thought this is only the benefit for a president. Then a voice said you are above a president!
6:06 pm
The pixel buds and the music using the first time on the trail is awesome.
Sad that I am almost reaching halfway point. This is fun.
6:13 pm
The telepathic contact went like this.
I am Ciakahrr. I am far away.
Me: What is your name?
He seemed to hesitate
Me: Then make up a name
Deal he said and left.
I think I am getting some dark energy from him, mostly nothing.
6:17 pm
God: I need to have you be expended – go broke, I heard it before but now I am less worried about it. Maybe money stollen. Probably to get me to be more compliant.
6:28 pm
I think to myself, maybe Enlil won’t be on a prison planet alone for long.
But how could we control the Galactic Federation with Ciakahhrs decimated, (some are hiding away), Nebu(Greys) gone completely.
The Russians despite great military, arguably more than Ukraine are almost losing because of me.
Maybe the numbers and technology can be limited with a great King- maybe there is a secret that I am missing.
After all the Dark fleet, Ciakahrrs and Nebu almost succeeded in ruling the galaxy. But the numbers now are far different.
6:40 pm
Enlil must be saved comes from the song I am listening to. Dated too.
6:45 pm
You would think the GF and others are doing a good thing by eradicating the negative forces.
Maybe put me in the same box.
But God is working to save me, this is a mystery.
If left to their own devices could they create a far worse problem then they are trying prevent?
6:50 pm
Soon on CNN, every day, Carny says for the twentieth time in a month.
I am reminded of a Jesus statement that the Antichrist will dominate the news but his watchers, not because of him, will not be taking good care of their health – as he does of his – will be declining in health.
I didn’t think it would come so soon, now maybe this will take a year or two but before I thought it would be like 5-10.
7:04 pm
“Soon lose tummy”. Carny? Referring that I will soon lose a lot of weight. No doubt because of stopping the olanzapine.
7:14 pm
The conversation I had with a Ciakahrr, Carny mentions was from Enlil.
Doubts remain since his psych powers on a prison planet may be mitigated with technology
7:16 pm
But the voice, of the Ciakahrrs was as if one of my guides. So maybe the guides created a bridge that bypassed the GF technology.
7:18 pm
So maybe that is why he hesitated to state his name because I would be shocked.
Anyways my posting is out of control today. Over the past few months I have been getting symptoms that I normally get from stopping Olanzapine. Less stressed, less mindful and the last few days not sleeping too late.
I attribute this to me overcoming the drug and getting healthier. But also posting. I remember the last time stopping the drug, Dec 2023 I was posting away on my blog day after day – before getting arrested.
7:36 pm
Some people like the journey more than the destination.
This is especially true tonight with me. 🙁
7:35 pm
Soon many women, a voice inside me says.
I am optimistic about this but I am also often told that this is an evil – bad for the health – something I did not expect. But that it has to be valued.
7:53 pm
“Soon many call and want your semen.” One guides says. Another answers “say yes”.
I will take meth maybe because it is a stimulant and gives better attention.
8:02 pm
I apparently have a brain implant that facilitates the communication from my guides.
8:16 pm
“Soon will be spent out. Soon will be transplanted.”
8:24 pm
Most of the guides and God either talk in Ukrainian or in a hybrid mix of Ukrainian and English. Translation sometimes doesn’t exactly transfer well.
8:41 pm
As I think about the semen stuff, I grew concerned that I may not be a safe DNA. But there is something about overcoming.
Job’s ( the Bible one) second round of daughters, after he withstood the trial, were the best looking daughters in the land. There is something more about the DNA that changes based upon our experiences and what I hope is with me so that the parents will be truly benefited.
8:52 pm
I’ve done a lot of work on overcoming generational curses so this is important and goes to prove my point that there is more to DNA than just the code. It carries our experiences and boy do I have experiences and overcoming.
9:01 pm
I was hoping to watch Netflix tonight but the guides want me writing this.
“You fear intercourse” something that is far from obvious to me. It seems to me that the act will be fun. This might show up in the moment.
That is why they earlier also told me that I will have to be brave with the first one because that one we will be on our own.
I am crazy with my writing today. The only thing is that during and since the walk I am wearing my ear buds and listening to electronic music something I haven’t done in like forever or years.
I think the electronic music helps me cope and feel better.
9:09 pm
Baked fries and had them with ketchup. Then made a water, frozen cherries and blueberry smoothie. Delicious and healthy. That is my dinner.
9:14 pm
I am told that Vera(aunt) will be over soon. Vladimir (brother). These are the kind of fokes that are near impossible to get to visit me. But something will change.
Maybe in a famine they need money or food. What will I charge for that? Sex? I shudder to think it will be like that but that is told me more than I care for to hear.
I think I go through like all my relatives this way. Crazy. Something I don’t care for. Give me strange girlfriends.
9:23 pm
My watch, for the first time ever, said that I had low physical readiness today.
And I do what I have only done once since coming to Texas: walk twice, 12 miles. Four hours. Feel tired right now, don’t feel like doing it a third time.
Funny I get voices asking me to do a run. They mean walk again at night, now. I did night walks before in New York. Unless they continue to press I am too tired to do a third walk.
Security is a factor. It’s also raining.
Both parks I go to are closed after sunset. I don’t want to find a place to walk right now but it is on my heart.
10:39 pm
So I had to go walking. Told maybe whole night!
11:02 pm
Just a hell. They want me to keep walking. I want to back home.
Video shows improvement and it would be worth it if it improved.
11:18 pm
They are continually telling me to walk all night
I realize that this may be true, but in general to believe it anymore is not wise.
I learned everybody lies, my guides, God but not the Holy Spirit or Jesus.
11:48 pm
Turning around now. Just insane what happened. Female guides were totally unsupportive. Was pressed to keep walking. I think God let me just turn around.
The guides who wanted whole night just wouldn’t let me turn around. Insane. Vanity.
Though before I left the female guide mentioned to fear going.
But something was on my heart to walk. Maybe God.
This is one of those times I ask myself why I can’t be like everyone else.
Maybe I meet up with them on these late night walks, but why not from my apartment.