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Am I Influencing the Lives of Strangers While in Obscurity?

Am I influencing people that I have never met?  Somehow across the ether?  Is this possible?  How is not clear to me.  But what I have noticed across time, is this is a judgement call.  While I am not a statistician, when a few unlikely coincidences or even words that you uttered in prayer, yes, even your thoughts are repeated by a celebrity, statistics is what I think is the best answer to the question.  Can thoughts, words or even changes in your life impact people that have never heard of you.

If you think purely materialistically, then this seems unlikely. However, we humans are largely spiritual beings. The term “sixth sense” explains it.  I like this definition of it: “any supposed sense or means of perception, such as intuition or clairvoyance, other than the five senses of sight, hearing, touch, taste, and smell”. 

Was reading on a topic of mind-reading – not sure where – but they were getting this information from a spiritual source of some sort (I think it was a Dolores Cannon book), anyway, the comment the source made was that some people are good receptors of other people’s thoughts and other people are good (or strong) projectors of them.  I think that I am the latter.

The Song

As I went about my daily life, somewhere around 2016 in Texas, I hear a song that at once feel is an inspiration of my life. 

Let me set the scene and then I will get to this song and its lyrics.

“One Will”

I may have mentioned this already, but in Texas (I was working there from 2011-2017) I went through a period where I was starving for spiritual information.  I bought various spiritual books and read them.  Couple that I would like to mention are on Edgar Cayce.  One key take away was that he said that man came from the Creator and that he was on a journey back to him.  His ultimate destination was being one with the Creator.  In this ultimate and glorious state, man’s will is one with the Creator.  They both have the same will or the man accepts the Creator’s will as his own.

This concept became the ideal that I lived for.  I remember thinking and even preaching on the event in the Bible where Jesus is about to be crucified, and he is praying to God.  This is the verse:

He went away again the second time, and prayed, saying, O my Father, if this cup may not pass away from me, except I drink it, thy will be done. 

Mat 26:42  (KJV)

He is saying that he is willing to be crucified if it is God’s will.  Pretty serious statement. I saw this as the “one will” concept that Edgar Cayce described in a trance.  I would use this in prayer regularly – just like Jesus did.

“Prophecies”

One of the most special things my experience in Texas, was attending a Russian church.  This was a small church.  What really made it stand out were the friendships and acceptance that I experienced there.  We went on road trips to other bigger communities for church conferences.  Regularly had Bible study youth group sessions at the leader’s house on Sunday nights.

We would have something to eat, have a Bible study discussion and then prayer.  This is when I discovered that the deacon’s daughter was a prophetess.  Occasionally, during prayer she would channel God. 

She would visit each person and give them a message from God.  Frequently the messages for me were about my future and what would happen there.  The messages were not long.

I would collect pieces of the puzzle and try to put them together.  This would occupy some of my thinking time. 

“Being God”

I was reading a “A Course in Miracles”, which is about a woman channeling Jesus.  The whole book is what he is saying through her. 

However, I learned one very important thing about myself.  One of the things that it made me understand was that I was trying to be God.  It presented a case where a person is trying to be him, and it matched me.

I couldn’t do much with that understanding, but I kept it in memory.

The Prayer

One Sunday night, after the Bible Study, this could have been 10pm or later, I have finally arrived back home.  The day, as usually had been long.  I left my house at around 12 pm for 1 pm service.  After the service there was free time, where the “youth” usually went to get sno-cones (a flavored ice shaving desert).  Then the Bible study and then back to my house.  I am living alone in a three-bedroom house that I am renting.

Am tired and don’t have much left to do but go to sleep.  I, as regularly, kneel to pray.  Praying was not easy for me, and this prayer was not long. I say a short prayer and end it with – “let your will be done”.  This was said, because I was tired, not knowing what else to pray, wanting God to do his work in my life.  This phrase became my regular because of the “one will” ideal that I had learned.

Then worried that God was not hearing my prayer, I said “I know that you can hear me”.  My reasoning was simple.  I believed that God knew all my sins.  This meant that he had witnessed them all.  If he saw my sins, then he surely is witnessing my prayer.  With this, I ended the prayer and went to bed.

I can tell you that this was an original prayer.  I, at that time, had not heard it on the radio. 

The Radio

I regularly listened to KCBI in Dallas, Texas. In fact, it was the only station that I listened to, and I always listened to it when driving the car.  KCBI is a Christian song / preaching station.

At some point I heard the “Thy Will” song by Hillary Scott (lyrics, song on Youtube).

She was probably getting this information through her sixth sense, without realizing where from.

I will mention pieces that have an uncanny similarity to my life.

The first three lines are this:

“I’m so confused

I know I heard You loud and clear

So, I followed through”

“Thy Will” – Hillary Scott & The Scott Family

Yes, there were times in my life that I heard the voice of God loud and clear and I did what he said.  But this is not all that rare in people.

The next part is the two things that I said in that prayer: “Your will be done, and I know that you can hear me.”

In the song it is said as “Thy will be done” and later adds “I know you hear me, Lord”.  She also adds “I know you see me, Lord” – something that I did not say.

What are the odds that these two phrases were said together in any work or prayer?  I certainly said them in my life. 

There is a chance they were said, except there is another line with this:

“Thy will be done

Like a child on my knees all that comes to me is

Thy will be done”

“Thy Will” – Hillary Scott & The Scott Family

Seems to convey that she is getting information from somewhere.  But this was also happening to me, where I had nothing else to pray, so I just resorted to the “your will be done”.

Finally, couple more things.

“Just trying to make sense

Of all Your promises

Sometimes I gotta stop

Remember that You’re God

And I am not

So”

“Thy Will” – Hillary Scott & The Scott Family

“Trying to make sense of all your promises” is a very elegant way of saying how I am spending my time – putting together the pieces of prophecies about my future life.

And the next several lines are a suggestion to stop trying to be God.  I also have that tendency.

If I am the future antichrist, he is prophesized to “magnify himself above every god” – not just think that he is god.

And the king shall do according to his will; and he shall exalt himself, and magnify himself above every god, and shall speak marvellous things against the God of gods, and shall prosper till the indignation be accomplished: for that that is determined shall be done. 

Dan 11:36 (KJV)

Timing

Now the timing.  I don’t have the date or even the year where the prayer that I said happened.  Roughly it was around 2013 – 2016, probably somewhere in the middle.  The song came out in July of 2016 (at least unto Amazon).

Like I said that I regularly listened to the Christian station and would have known that I heard the two phrases if they preceded that prayer.  They did not. They were an original prayer at that time.

I believe she was getting this from her sixth sense.  I happened to hear her explanation for the Thy Will reason and I believe her here. 

Ultimately, what we were going through around 2015, where we both prayed a similar, and I believe unique prayer, begs the question: can this be just random chance?  Or was one of us influencing the other across the ether?

Late 2019

This period of my life, I was working already two years at a new company after having moved back from Texas.  This year was more stable than the earlier one.  I was able to help on a critical product and have it meet an aggressive timeline, earlier in the year.

In essence, this year was not different than many that preceded it.  I was not doing too well health wise.  There were times that I would take breaks to not push myself over the edge.  I enjoyed the work, but I was not taking care of myself enough. 

I always had faith in the workers through almost two decades that they were working on me.  To be honest, I didn’t have much evidence that they were helping me a lot.  One that stood out, was one night, I was laying in bed and my arm bone was really hurting badly for no apparent reason.  It didn’t occur to me to go to the doctor at all.  They pain was getting pretty intense.  Suddenly, and I believe it was because of their work, the pain subsided and a pleasant feeling returned to the area.

If they were helping, it was going very, very slowly.

Around this year, I was getting the message that time was running out.  I am not sure in what way.  This year also was the period where I was getting a campaign of text messages, calls, and voicemail from a friend but also mostly strangers.  I basically ghosted all of it, fearing for my safety. 

As we know Coronavirus started the next year.  It was around this time, I believe around the New Year, give or take a month or two, that I got this word as I was working at my desk.

“You’re within our strength.  You’re in time.”  It was from the female worker.  This was a major relief to me.  I knew that this was a major turning point in my life.  This was a big milestone.

The next two, three years would not be easy.  Things would seemingly get worse, but I always held out hope that things would improve.  The walls would come in closer and closer and stay that way for a while.  Until things started to improve.

Perhaps, the best song about this time is from a Christian group called MercyMe.  They released a song titled: “Better Days Coming” (lyrics, Youtube).  They released it in 2022, right in the period where I was thinking of the same thing.

I was listening to this group for a long time, some Christian radio and other tracks on my phone that I bought.

Transformation

First, I have not listened to all of their songs, a few, but I have witnessed, and you can too, one of the biggest changes in a person that I have come across.

The leader singer is Bart Millard, and I believe that most of the songs are about his life.

One song that I have from their group, from 2004, titled “Hold Fast” (lyrics).  Here’s is a few lines:

“Will this season ever pass?

Can we stop this ride?

Will we see the sun at last?

Or could this be our lot in life?

Please do not let go

I promise you there’s hope?

“Hold Fast” – MercyMe


Later:

“Searching for the truth

The truth of what we’re soon to face

Unless someone comes to take our place

Is there anyone?

All we want is to be free

Free from our captivity, Lord”

“Hold Fast” – MercyMe

My emphasis here.  The reason is because he will return to this limitation after almost two decades, with some very good news.

MercyMe has two major hits, as far as I know.  “I Can Only Imagine” and “Even If”.  The latter is a decidedly sadder song.  It is a song of desperation.  Almost if someone is standing on an edge of an abyss.  This came out in 2017.

The next album would be released in 2021 titled Inhale(Exhale).  Sometime between these two albums, there was a transformation.

The lyrics in this album are all upbeat.  Here’s some from “So Yesterday” :

“Hoping

That you see

That something

Inside of me’s changed

(Everything’s changed now)

Leaving

Behind me

The old me

And walking away

Oh cause that was so

Yesterday (yesterday)”

“So Yesterday” – MercyMe

The next album continues the same way (Always Only Jesus, 2022).  The lead song, Then Christ Came, has this important line:

“I never thought that I would ever see the day

When every single chain would break

Or hear the voice of heaven call my name”

“Then Christ Came” – MercyMe

Remember the line from 2004, it seems God answered the prayer.  Who? I believe it was to Mr. Millard.

Lives often don’t go from desperation to miraculous recovery.  Here it is pretty clear to me that it did.  His songs with these two albums are really inspirational and pleasant to listen to.  In fact, I, lately, only listen to these two albums.

So, what happened here, and how.

Over a period of time, and listening to other songs of his, I have come to the conclusion, that the life change that I experience early in 2020, somehow affected him, somehow freed him in his life.

To be honest, things weren’t that great for me during that time, however I still believe it.  If the changes that are written here, happened to him well before 2020, then I would be skeptical of this claim.  However, if after then, in my mind, I think there may be an influence here.

Here is a couple of notes here “Brand New” (lyrics)

“I’m brand new

Brand new

Brand new

Better late

Better late than never

Better late than never at all

Everything changes

From this moment on

Better late

Better late than never

Better late than never at all”

“Brand New” – MercyMe

As discussed, I experience a transition form “late” to “in time” milestone early in 2020.  Song comes out in April 2021.

Politics

A quick note about politics here.

Early in 2022 was a challenging time for President Biden.  As discussed in my earlier post on him, Sen. Manchin and Sen. Sinema started to stall his agenda.  There was a good faith effort made by Manchin to come to his side, but he just could not achieve it, every time.

I was so relieved and supportive of them during this time.  I was adamantly not agreeing with what Biden was trying to do.

Then came the second milestone, me getting womanized (check out the earlier post for more details). This was a very significant milestone, one that made me come on board with Biden.  Manchin and Sinema did the same thing too, and it was just accomplishment after accomplishment for Biden since then.

There is one observation that I made about Manchin and Sinema.  The start of their last names matches with what the Bible describes the Antichrist as:

2Th 2:3  Let no man deceive you by any means: for that day shall not come, except there come a falling away first, and that man of sin be revealed, the son of perdition; 

2Th 2:4  Who opposeth and exalteth himself above all that is called God, or that is worshipped; so that he as God sitteth in the temple of God, shewing himself that he is God. 

2 Th 2:3-4 (KJV)

In the KJV Bible, the phrase “man of sin” occurs only once and in the verse that I provided. 

Are they the herald to the coming Man of Sin?

Overall

I believe here that I am at least mostly correct in what I am claiming here.  These were the people that I was able to learn about through the news and music sources that I follow.  Can there be other people out there that I influence?  I think this is very likely and that this is a tip of the iceberg. 

In fact, I don’t believe that I am the only one.  I think it is more common than we think.

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