I am not a full-time seer just yet. Have had one experience that I believe was it and that I will describe now. I will also go into other topics on this post, including my job search. This is mainly a status piece on where I am right now in September 2023.
The river
This experience was happening around 2014-2016. I was working and living in Texas as a software engineer. I was pretty heavy but that was not the reason that I decided to take up walking. Walking is a good antidepressant, so I would try to find the time to walk the streets around my house. Occasionally during lunch, I would walk to the company gym that had a track and field. It would be there that I would discover something unusual.
Somehow, I discovered that after walking the track at least for one lap and closing my eyes, I would see things. What I was seeing was almost always the same. Standing with my eyes closed, there were what looked like stars, dim and in darkness moving past me. Instead of me moving forward, it looked like I was moving backward, facing forward. The “stars” were flowing from behind me, into a horizon in front of me.
I didn’t know what to make of this. One time, I saw an image in darkness. I was like, “Am I seeing an image?” Very surprised. The image was a colored texture, and it could have been a texture on one of my house walls, or from a music CD cover.
That was about the extent of this at the time.
Fast forward until now, and I can confirm that I still can see this. Taking up walking – it only sems to happen when I am walking and outside – I am still able to see the stars moving past me. Sometimes it seems like the stars form a tunnel and that tunnel turns to the side and then I am traveling sideways through it. Sometimes the tunnel turns out of my view and disappears. I also start seeing, in darkness, photographic images. They seem to be random. For something that I was really impressed with those seven years ago, seeing photographic images, faded and but still visible, doesn’t seem to impress me as much now.
There is one that is recurring. I see a view of a body of water, that is blue and is still as glass. The water extends to the horizons, and I am hovering a few meters above it. It is a little scary to see this view and a little exhilarating thinking about it.
One image that I recall recently, was what looked like a dark, dirty, damp hall. Except the hall was going up with stairs. A rectangular, smooth, cement passage going up with stairs. Maybe that is my path going forward. Maybe it will look better later after I reach the door.
What do I make of the stars flowing past me? I think it may be a river. Maybe the river is going to the Source or the Creator. I am not sure here, but this is the only thing that right now that makes sense. I should note that I can’t see these stars when I am in my bedroom. Only when I am walking outside, in daylight and eyes closed. But I can see the photographic show anywhere.
I am Fortunate for these Unanswered Prayers
As things are improving and I am feeling better, I realized yesterday that there were a few things that I wanted, badly, that would have been tragic if I got them. They are:
1. Getting Taken
2. Blog going viral
3. Finding a job
Just recently, I started to look for a job again. After five applications (not much, I know) and a few interviews, disappointed I gave up. A few weeks after that, I realized that I still cannot work and if I had gotten a job, it would have been a very bad experience. So, I have no intention of restarting it real soon.
Blog going viral would have really maxed me out during the time that I needed rest and peace to recover. It would have been a constant distraction with no good end in sight. I never succeeded in getting there, though I really tried, by writing to various news outlets. Fortunately, the outlets never cared.
The last one, I have briefly gone over in my previous post, is this past desire to be taken. A prophetess spoke that God was protecting me from this, a “hand” wanted to take me, but God decided to prevent this, because at time I was not harvestable.
What does harvestable mean? This is really hard to find an answer to this, but I now know. You and I live in the third density. As we grow spiritually, over time, and many lifetimes, we reach a point where we are harvestable into the 4th. While I have not heard of the connection between the fourth density and fourth dimension, I think they are the same.
I believe, I am getting there. And if God had not prevented a group from taking me around 2016, they would have messed up my ability to reach the fourth density, something that is super important.
An Analogue
One way to understand densities or dimensions is like a building with stories. Imagine Earth as a building with seven stories. We live on the third story and cannot see the stories above or below, but things are happening there.
For example, Jupiter. From our level (or dimension) it is a gaseous uninhabited planet. But on some higher dimension it is solid like Earth and has inhabitants.
We have made it to the third story. It may have taken many lifetimes and tens of thousands if not millions of years.
If you think this as an analogy of a building, we travel up using a staircase. We take one step at a time, it may be long, but that is what it takes to ascend these dimensions.
Fourth Dimension
I came across a tweet from a person who is getting messages from a very high, positive, ET source. Most of my understanding on the fourth density comes from Ra ( I have a post on this ). He mainly said that we have no words to describe the fourth density. But he did say that the fourth density involves dealing with what I summarize as the “thought domain”.
In this tweet, a different author explains the “Astral Plane” or the fourth dimension in various ways. It is best to read it for yourself (click on here). I will focus in on the “thought forms”.
“Thought Forms Are Energy Constructs From Thoughts By Intention Or Random Expressions. Each Thought Creates Form. Throughout Each Day, Every Thought That Is Allowed To Come Forth Has Created A Matching Template In Astral.”
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“Among The Endless Structures Of Color And Design With Geometric Patterns And Moving Walls, Those Visitors Of Curiosity Will Become Terrified Without Mastering Their Experience.”
He later mentions that people access this plane only with their eyes closed.
So, after reading this, I decided to do just that. In darkness, I was able to see a geometric form in grayscale. It looked like a space station (something like from Star Trek: Deep Space Nine). With the spherical core and extensions going from it. I only saw it in pieces and that is what mainly came to mind.
Was super excited! I am seeing the fourth dimension!
I was not able to repeat seeing shapes until briefly this one night.
As I am lying in bed, going to sleep, I suddenly feel relief. Like a big boulder rolled off my chest, or a piece of cancer removed from same. I really felt much better than ever before it seems. Again, hopeful that this would be a new normal.
I started to see what looked exactly what the tweet described earlier: random geometric shapes, except this time they were in various colors, connected and in darkness. They were brighter and more distinct than the first time. This continued for about a minute, until they disappeared. The boulder it seemed had rolled back into me. I will have to wait a little longer to re-reach this state again, hopefully for a longer period of time.
Darkness and Below
This is off theme, but this post is supposed to be a status piece. I for most of my life, have aspired to be saved, to go to heaven, to be above and light.
Now I realized that I have taken the opposite side. I believe that viewing porn has changed my destiny, at least for a while.
After the first porn experience, and stopping the medication for a week, I saw a hand that was pointing down and then waving goodbye. I now believe that it meant that I have fallen to the below. The hand may have been indicating that this will last forever, that I will never be able to or want to return to the above, where there is light.
I realize that I have become a dark being, after a few falls in my life. I have grown to be more comfortable with this.
However, I am still holding out hope that this will not be forever, that maybe like Ra states that, when beings reach the sixth density, they can’t continue as a negative at all in that density and decide to flip to the positive to progress. Surprisingly he states, that the more advanced, the more polarized the person is, the easier it is to flip.
The third density is the one that the person makes a choice. Either go into 4D positive of 4D negative. For 4D positive, the person needs to expend at least 51% of their thoughts and doings as a service to others. To be able to be harvested into the 4th density negative, the entity needs to have at least 90% of thoughts and actions as a service to self. Both are equally hard to achieve.
Once incarnated into the fourth density, these beings are invisible to the third density ones. Have much longer lifespans. The negative path can go on for fourth and fifth densities, but on the sixth, there needs to be love to progress, and this is where negative beings must flip or return to lower densities as wanderers.
Conclusion
I spend a lot of time waiting, waiting for things to improve. In some ways they are and in some ways they have not. But the important part, is that the waiting is getting easier, and I have more abilities to make it through with doing things.
I have decided to wait until there is a game changer change in my life before thinking about whether to return to work. Maybe it won’t be back to engineering. Engineering is a low impact to the world job. Well, at least at my last employment. You are working on some gadget that impacts very few people. Putting in a lot of effort. It is not healthy since you are mainly working with computers. But the money and being in a team is the best reward there.
Sitting at home is not that fun, but recovery is far more important.
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