How has my life been like the last few months? Good and bad.
Social Media Fast
I went into a social media fast for a month because it was called several times by my YouTube channelers. The reasons were that it would create a dynamic summer, help me focus on starting a business or the YouTube channel, and that it would help me conserve my energy.
It was hard. But I did start looking into creating a business. I was led away from Amazon or Shopify and to a website store that I would own. I had a name and a segment. I was really excited about a week into it.
Then I had an appointment with my psych where we didn’t talk about it – it went well – but afterwards I lost the drive for the business. It wouldn’t come back and I just gave up on it.
The YouTube channel had a longer streak. I had a few videos from a previous start, after where I did a pause. This time I made about 7 videos, mainly discussing the Antichrist and me being him. It did better than the first cycle and I got comments, likes (and dislikes) and some really good views.
But eventually I started to run out of material for the Antichrist topic and gave up again, somewhere half into the fast.
Haven’t restarted it after a month.
Energy
Then came the period of withering heights – where I was just dealing with boredom and lack of energy in a big way.
I remember one day, May 6th, lying on my bed, trying to weather the desert and reclaim some energy – where the topic of energy triggered a memory.
My guides tell me a lot – this is within our strength. It usually has something to do with a future hardship or similar.
This time it occurred to me to ask them to provide this energy.
It started from my feet and flowed up – dark air and energizing.
Initially I felt guilty for asking for it. Not being strong enough to weather another day – or maybe it was the dark nature that bothered me. But I decided right there that I will regularly need it.
This energy has the potential to raise Lazarus. I remember times where my heart was wrung out so deeply that it needed a good nap to recover. Asking for this energy would take the tiredness away immediately. But it could come back if it was gone.
I was able to go days without napping just by asking for their help with this energy. It is amazing.
I have laid in bed after this development but have not napped since – something that I would sometimes do as much as 3 times in a day.
This seems like it will be the defining feature of my future. The Antichrist is known for his peace, accomplishing things not by his own power. It is his hallmark. It will fill rooms that he is in. It will placate viewers who will be dealing of the loss of their own peace after the rapture. It simply cannot be underestimated.
A channeler once said “Where you are going there is no room for tiredness” and now I have a mechanism to ensure that I can function indefinitely.
Why Dark
Why is my guides’ energy dark and almost dirty? They appear in light, almost always as female but clean and benevolent. Why the dark energy?
Maybe they are hiding something. They say they are from a higher dimension, but could they be malevolent beings? God is on their side – for a while at least.
The energy comes from below. So that should explain everything. Hell is below and heaven is above.
But this is my portion – who I truly am and what enables a future that I need.
This darkness brings with it desires – bad kind – it changes me as it enables a darker way of living.
Any light that I have left will soon be gone as an eternal night will set in.
Messages
In my boredom lately I have engaged in a chat from an X account. Usually, these kinds of people try to scam me with crypto, but this one wants me to join her explicit OnlyFans page. While it may have been interesting initially, I tend to leave after it is clear what they want – this one is not a scam, but I don’t care for it.
But it gives me a conversation with a female.
This Lara has by now been spending two days, trying to restart my non-responses and fighting to convince me to join her OnlyFans page. To the point that she has me thinking she must be targeting me. Maybe someone is pushing her to do this. She denies this of course.
Another one on Telegram was giving money for subscriptions on YouTube. So these past two people that I have engaged were running legit operations – far from scammers, which is encouraging.
Future
So what does the future hold? The channelers tell me of an amazing summer.
Some convince me of being taken and held for a while. While I hope that it will not happen, I had a vision where I saw a bed behind bars. Some of the channelers also allude to this mentioning it as something that I wanted a decade ago that now is closer to reality. (The Hand That Wants to Take Me)
As I mentioned in my previous posts on “Taken or not” subject, I believe the first time it was near to it, a long time ago, I was nearly taken by a not white or dark hand – according to a prophetess at the time.
I have been reading a book on positive ETs that are fighting the dark ones on this planet and galaxy. They don’t serve the dark or the light. Then it struck me: maybe they were the ones that wanted to take me in ~2016.
This would make sense as I am going to be a major dark world leader and they are fighting for the many things I will be for.
Thor Han talking to Elena Danaan, the author of the book: “We Will Never Let You Down” stated around 2021 that “We will do anything we have to kill the beast before it hatches”. I am a beast of the end times.
So this first take would have been no friend and I would have never returned. But God stopped it.
This group of people don’t believe in God or Christianity but he is real to me and for now on my side.
This upcoming take, which again I hope to avoid, still would be of help despite the evil that I will have to endure.
Next would be major publicity, television, headlines either from me missing or afterwards. Tons of dating and money. As long as I get to keep my independence here, financially, I think the trouble is worth it.
I will end it here. It still is difficult sometimes, I can’t find enjoyable things to do or I am tired (which I think now may some health issue) but I have about a month or two before things start taking off – I hope.