5/1/2026
9:28 am
As I sit at my desk and try to make sense of what happened and why it needed to happen I am left with little answers.
9:35 am
The benefit of disruptions like this is it passes the time fast. And I am waiting until a more meaningful life comes. This will likely be after the first one.
12:30 pm
The need to go walking last night came from the top and he seemed wanted to walk further for reasons unknown.
I felt like taking a walk today but am holding back.
Need to go to Costco.
12 days left in the fast. Was thinking of giving it extra but it is giving me a hard time.
If Carny is correct, there is about a month and a half (June) until the life changing event and everything changes. Until then it is me on my own and a lot of waiting.
As I was walking last night I did some thinking. God was saying you are going to run out of money.
The two things the channellers were telling me to do was: start the fast and start posting. And also start an ecommerce business.
The posting stopped on YouTube just lost the drive.
The ecommerce idea started hot but it left me after my apt with the psych for reasons unknown. This is technically something that I could work on. I don’t have the passion and am concerned about it failing me and I lose a lot of money.
So there is the third way to make money or a future and it is being taken.
Because if I run out of money, I will just have to return to living with my parents – but God said that I won’t be driving her anymore – so that likely won’t happen.
I was thinking last night how useless I am, can’t post, sell things online – where could I work? Except I reminded myself I just am holding the world’s peace.
“You’re Marduch” a voice said. Maybe the name is wrong but it the Bible story about an Iranian (Persia) guy trying to wipe out Israel – I am supposed to be that guy in a previous incarnation. He gets hanged and Israel survives.
5:37 pm
So details are coming out about last night. I came close to mission failure. This apparently has to do with being taken off the road that I was walking on. Don’t know much more – but God I think prevented it.
The question remains is why I was called to walk in the first place – but that will have to remain with God for now.
To be sure – I am not worried about my financial solvency or how things will work out here in Jacksonville. It is the channellers who came up with the social media fast – not a problem – they also got me worried about the financial side like posting and starting a business – I don’t have a sense of urgency – I think things will work out.
I haven’t stepped outside today. It looks pretty good. The last night really had a wipe out effect on me. I was feeling weak even after napping. But the weakness has went away.
6:20 pm
“You’re a bastard” I am told. So maybe I am not Igor’s child but I think I am Lubov’s. Igor suspected this with Andrey and Vladimir – or at least Vladimir.
The details remain unknown.
8:42 pm
Watched some Netflix tonight – a show Unfamiliar. The show is heavy and brutal with the two lead actors are German and based in Germany. Anyways I think I prefer American shows better but I finished watching the 7 episodes and kept coming back.
5/2/2026
8:40 am
My health stats are back to normal (according to watch). Days pass one after another and the big day draws nearer and is inevitable.
Costco shopping is for tomorrow.
Raining heavily today so I probably won’t go walking – besides I am still kind of tired – unusual – maybe it’s just the morning.
Made myself some caf coffee and sipping it.
8:50 am
“You’ll get cancer” not the first time I hear it. Something will cause it and I dread having to go through the treatments.
8:53 am
“You’ll soon disappear” obviously I think I know what this means.
9:04 am
I decided to read a book. As I turned on my electronic music – I jumped to Lullaby Horizon – a heavenly tune.
I imagined a scene – a guy is living mundane days all alone – but suddenly a red carpet appears, characters show up and grab his hand and whisk him away from his old life. “Kiss” is what I hear will make this happen. But I am not ready for it yet hopefully almost because then why is God taking this time.
I remember a scene in Dallas, a young woman, a Russian, married an American – God told her she lost good stuff meant for her because she went her own way.
You know, I considered marrying in Dallas, there was a suitable woman, but every time I met her I just knew it was not time yet.
There were people wanting me to get married – but it would have ended up in tragedy – my angels would not have been able to save me.
So I went through hardships – I knew there was no other way.
I’ve held out until now. I consider taking matter into my own hands and kissing someone – but I realize it is wrong to take matter into your hands – must wait on God here and the time is surmountable
Song “Take what you need but you are holding out for something” is making me cry. So maybe this is a message.
God promised me in Dallas that when he builds me up he will send a helper who will strengthen my hands.
Honestly, I don’t desire a girlfriend today – I am more neutral. Maybe a few days ago I wanted one for the friendship.
In Dallas, my sexual drive was crazy – I was in my 30s so that is normal – I wanted to get married but couldn’t go through the ceremony – it was just too much.
Today it is almost gone. I don’t understand how I will date daily when my DOs (interdimentional sex) are almost like once a week. In Dallas, it was one every one or two days.
So I am not taking anything because I don’t need it badly. I think it will require a friendship first. This is something that I would be open to.
I guess the first one is important and I want a good story not something that will be regretful – or maybe not easily shared.
So this is God’s territory and his expertise to make happen. I am open to a friendship but I would prefer it would come from God and not man.
But to be honest right now I am chill not caring even for a friendship, much less sex. This is a tough situation to solve and it is best left to God.
But a few days ago I was longing for a girlfriend so things can change quick. I was going through hardships that one could alleviate.
The chill I am feeling is peace and God told me it will fill the room in the future – people will feel it.
I just imagined a scene with Delilah and Samson. The Philistines were waiting for Delilah to get the secret (compromise Samson) where they could jump in and take him.
It is clear to me that it will take a girlfriend for the taking to happen.
I asked God what would he do if I suffered mission failure(propal). What would be the backup plan – there is no other way he said.
A channeller gave me precious information and then stopped sharing.
“There were others like you from where you came from. But they chose other ways – you wanted to come here”.
Sometimes it has been hell and I wanted out but was able to pass through ( something I will do until the end)
Some of my electronic music is bringing back memories from early 2023 more like feelings it was surprisingly critical but it didn’t occur to me that it was so back then. 9:56 am
I think back to my last hospitalization and I remember Liz. A thin, pretty young woman. It was clear to me that she wanted me. She was from Rush the same town that I was in back then.
Anyways, I could use a person like that today.
I am surprised she was interested in me – what did she see? I was badly overweight. She like others along my path had desires for me – for reasons that elude me.
So what God wanted badly – for me to write has suddenly been realized. I guess my angels were able to win this for me. They say things like it is within our strength to have this happen the word is vsil – a Ukrainian or Russian word.
“Syn, mene po CNN” My child me on CNN.
You know if they never told me that I was the Antichrist, I don’t know if I would have guessed it today that I was. There is work left to do.
I remember my Clarkson days in 2000. I was writing these long emails to a teacher’s assistant, a young woman. It was catharizing just like now. This is something that I am returning to now – I think the medication – even at a higher dosage is being overcome.
10:20 am
I think back to the, few months before COVID, Dec 2019. A prophetess said in our church, “Decision after decision is being made behind closed doors and it is not going in your favor (for Christians)”
I think it was the deep state guys (inner state) knew that I would be vsil (within the strength) and started making decisions based on that future. This was a few months before I would be told that I was within the strength.
“Tyt po spy” – I am fine sleeping here with the first one. I would welcome staying here until the lease runs out – but I think I will lose this place and my guides want that. They want me evicted!
There is an esoteric reason for this. Just like they wanted me to get fired in my last job and not to resign. It worked out super well that way. I was released of a burden that I may have not been the other way.
The game theory back then was crazy. I never considered it but what if they would talk me out of the resignation. I never thought about that. Time was running out, my performance review was coming up and it would be traumatic. COVID vaccines were on the way and I don’t think I would have avoided them if I stayed.
I never thought about this but it seems that getting intelligence is a war to win to get. So is feeling better and getting off medication. Maybe things like depression and psychosis are a product of a lost battle to other people.
“Slut – good job” apparently that is coming up for me.
The moment is magical. The song is too.
There is something about freeing yourself, coming into wonders all alone at your own place – this would not be even close if I was with my parents.
10:57 am
As I think back to being in Germany – my last business trip to there, I see that even there, there were people who wanted me to be laid – this time for a very bad reason – they didn’t care if the world went over an abyss.
I am almost there and it is important I am ready.
“Ty(you) soon lose good job” Apparently it is too much for me and I give up the dating job.
“You’re going to die” code word for dating
“Fear first one”
“Mistake”
Under the right circumstances – her coming from God, I don’t think I will fear her.
“Det mene po internete” I am going to be all over the internet – exciting.
Right now the reception I got on YouTube was a little negative – most likely because I was saying that I am the Antichrist.
I ordered a lot of books from Elena, thinking they will help pass the time. I got through a third of the first one. Got useful information on space stuff – things I could use in the future – but I just keep putting off the book – it is not drawing me. Well maybe I just don’t have the right time.
I did read fully the Koldas one, but the ending was underwhelming. Made me think the Architects were lying who they were – but as I think back I see reasons that they maybe are telling the truth.
They are from Earth from the future and who left evidence of cities on Saturn, I think, went to live in a neighboring universe. They left an overpopulated future to live back in time where there was some free places.
The music is giving me vibes of a VIP person being ushered through tunnel into somewhere…
But they gave me a key phrase: “The Earth species are one of the most hunted in creation”
At first I didn’t think Earth was important, that I came to save an ordinary planet. Then I learned it was important in the universe – it stunned me.
Then I learned it was important in the metaverse. Okay wow.
Now it is important in creation (infinite universes) – a real stunner.
You see…
Something happened. I think I just overwhelmed someone… or not…
11:40 am
It is 11:42 am and I am not hungry. I think I had a few bananas for breakfast or maybe not – but definitely coffee.
Sometimes when I am listening to electronic music I get these mission critical vibes coming from it that beings are working in dramatic fashion executing an important plan.
The music says “following me” repeatably. I think it is either followers on social media or security, likely both in the future.
Even as Jesus comes back to defeat the Antichrist at the Second Coming – in Armageddon – I think he is grateful for him for preserving the peace. What would happen to his Christians if the world went over an abyss?
Although if he doesn’t come back early he will have no one left to save – so that is something to think about.
I think back to the moment where I was told that I am above the President and God said that I need to tremtit – tremble about getting an important security detail – okay I am getting a mind block
“You are a witch” I don’t see much psych powers with me but the sex from a distance may be one – but it really is a beast power.
I am just getting hungry – so I will still wait but I am having rice, salsa and avocados.
11:59 am
One thing the Bible says about the AC is that he will do things with power – but it won’t be his power. It is clear to me that it will come from my angels. Then in Revelation times he will get it publicly from the Dragon (is it a Ciakahrr?)
I am getting an idea that maybe I should publish this, my diary on my blog – God suggested it earlier but I thought just some segments, anyways…
The review can be overwhelming, anyways will have to see about this. Maybe do this day by day.
“Boode ne spyt” the music mentions, something about sleepless nights.
“Boode kept soon” so maybe supported by a group of people as a reference to “kept women” ones who are used to scam people in Ukraine. So maybe it will be me but minus the scam.
“Soon mnogo zlov” Soon much evil – a reference to dating. Again dating has negative consequences at least for me.
Just seemed like a boulder was removed and the music comes in clearer. There was some blockage.
It is now louder.
The rice, salsa and an avocado sits in front of me – the appetite has not yet come.
I need a shower and a change of clothes, it’s been two days since the last one, but I am holding out until tomorrow.
I have been previously told that the first date will shock me.
Some of this electronic music is just so awesome. [Appetite has come]
Regarding dating, I just have to remember or be reminded that it is a burden that must be carried (God said). “to nooshjno pones”
Funny things about me is that if I continue eating past the appetite I start to get nauseous and get on a verge of throwing up.
So there will be a lot of dating here, I ask if this house or Jacksonville, I get back house. But I am supposed to be evicted here soon – “that is fool” so maybe I get to stay here after the publicity comes and maybe stay here until the lease at least ends which is my preference – I have nowhere else to go or want to just yet.
“Soon get new car” The reference to soon can be up to a year. My next car I want is a Cybertruck. Has security windows and body so that is a plus. I have been told to get an electronic one next but I totally forget about the Cybertruck until I was reminded of it. Tons of room – some negatives are small windows and it being really big but it has four tire steering which helps a lot.
This is the last creation of Elon Musk. Tragically he is somewhere inside Earth – replaced by a clone. We are somehow connected in a way I don’t understand. I am his leader or his champion so I am surviving his companies now and have in the past.
He was taken I think because he was dying. I was upset at the trouble he was causing Sam Altman – apparently another soul person of mines. He is cloned too I think.
It is raining outside, phone playing music as I sit inside a lit room finishing my meal and drinks.
“Beggar need food ” is it me or someone else “on your doorstep” the Assassin by Sultan plays tells me.
How do I limit this? Give food for sex while in a famine? Who will be the real benefactor here – them?
“Your one look took me down” the song plays this time with official lyrics.
1:07 pm
I think back to the merger Netflix wanted with Disney – which CNN is a part of. The government preferred Paramount’s offer and effectively forced Netflix out of the game.
I suspect the real reason that the Government stepped in was because of CNN. It might have been lost in Netflix’s offer which would have spun it out from the new entity. Was it because it is important to the government or is it more important to me and my future and it had to be preserved? Maybe both.
“Soon po cabelahh – chen ty” “Soon over the cable – you are valuable” This is a matter of time the real win if this happens in the next year or two.
They say that the coverage of Trump gave a rating boost to the cable networks. Trump is nothing compared to me. But this may need time.
1:17 pm
“Soon veselah” Soon wedding. This is the second time I am being warned about this today. In the morning I was upset about it – I didn’t want one.
But under the right circumstances it may happen. I don’t think I will be faithful for long. But there are some marriages that the woman is okay with this.
I couldn’t do the ceremony this morning but now it is not a problem.
“Soon need robotoo” soon will have a job.
“Soon will be star”
God I would want a walk just to reset today – but it is not possible.
“Need whore soon” says a voice. It may describe both parties.
My food is running out and I wanted to go shopping today but my guides says I must wait until tomorrow.
“Soon mnogo sleepy” Soon much sleeping – this is getting dull
I was told yesterday that I have a child – a daughter. I once seen a vision of about an eight year running to me saying “Daddy” this was years back.
You just gotta listed to Behind Her Eyes by Sultan + Shepard it is playing now.
“yt” me here, sounds like “it”
“Chena here” “Awestruck” someone will be here so beautiful that I will be awestruck by.
“Need first one”
I just feel like doing Yoga to the electronic dance music that is playing. Not just to dance, like Yoga is not just done for movements.
So I am almost running out of six cups of coffee I made this morning.
Some of this electronic music is heavenly.
I am getting tired – wanted to go back to review April and maybe publish it – but it is not yet time I am told.
“Soon drugi, soon poseli” Soon drugs, soon within my strength. “Soon CNN.” ” Only”.
“Det(child) soon arrest you” (Only God refers to me as a child.) Yes, this is supposed to be my taking after the first one. That is what everything is waiting for, abduction, CNN…
“Date men. Big Men” the song is saying. I think it is dating important men. In the past I have been told they will be Trump, Schumer, others I don’t remember. These are the only men I care to date – not the average kind – ones with a mission.
Some will be post-mortem.
My mission is just insane!
I am supposed to publish my dates in the future.
“Soon apocalypse dom (house)”
2:18 pm
This is a current image of where I am (OP Image, see above).
2:28 pm
“Soon mayhem” a vision of a middle-aged white woman appears and says.
“Scoro spid” Soon HIV. God why do you do this to me?
Alive by Edannn starts out majestically
3:34 pm
Published April diary.
God told me using the term that was given to me the last time I was in Germany (zbut zdoroge). This was a time where if a certain group found me, they planned to get me to have sex with one of their young woman. With that act I would no longer be save-able by my angels and the Earth would be destined for a catastrophe.
Here God is telling me that my first one will not be organic and then the taking it is only the taking and then the first one.
So when that happens is entirely up to God and the operatives. Is it this month or June? Things seem to shift around – I think the latest is by June.
The reason I would not be saveable from that act in Germany is because I would no longer be within the strength of my angels – the act at least would delay it. Time was tight already. They meant it for the precise reason to lose me and world salvation.
Now I am already saved so the dating act will not have the devastating effect it would have had earlier. Besides these are all my friends so they will be careful to not go overboard.
4:18 pm
Published this diary up to now.
“Vyzevy” God says, visas, my code word for traveling into space. Previously I was told I would be on Ganymede one of Jupiter’s moons. Galactic Federation of Worlds has an outpost there.
I would appreciate if I met at least Thor Han – a character I already am familiar with. But he is deeply involved in trying to wipe out the negative forces on Earth and in the Solar System.
Elena Danaan his mate who he has a long time of past incarnations are deeply hoping for an Earth Future eradicated of the Deep State and the “Dark Ones”. A future where the Earth Race is free from slavery and able to have a Star Trek future.
While I don’t mind eradicating the dark ones, my future will involve control over the human race through the mark of the beast. It won’t be a future of freedom – I will be the elite and the rest, I am sorry to say, might be close to slaves.
This is the structure of a negatively harvested 4th density entity – stuff I found in Ra’s material (The Law of One) – stated that the negative ones have a valid way of serving the creator – they have their own path through the densities – dimensions. It is harder to be harvested into the 4th density as a negative than as a positive. I digress.
The message I will have for Thor Han is that at least cooperate with me if not join me because the wait out will be overwhelming – I will hold the power for decades.
God is on my side and very much controlling things so that may be an excuse to cooperate.
But frankly I don’t care about him.
If he would give me access to Elena we may be able to communicate – she already is subconsciously targeting me with the last hospitalization. I see her as a positive effect on my life. Or maybe my current brain implant can contact him directly – something I think is too much to give to him – but I am told to value.
I am supposed to have something to do with Ea and his Niburu habitation spaceship.
Finally, if Thor Han wants order on this planet and a future then it is only me who is doing it – but I am pushing this too much.
4:38 pm
So I think, where are my guides from? Do they have a presence in this solar system? They tell me that they are in the higher dimension 4th according to Ra and 5th according to the GFW one – I think.
Do they have spacecraft and things like it?
I have to reiterate, the last time I was non-stop posting was before I was arrested with the last hospitalization. This has the same echo.
I have been told to fear Ea – maybe it has something to do with dating – his last wife has been really hurt after their marriage and is living on another world. Anyways I mean it I don’t care for stuff like that so maybe it is psychosis and voices keeping me entertained.
I think I saw Ea in a vision dating an Earth woman – so maybe there is something to it.
God finally has his way with me posting away – He was calling me to write endlessly – so this is his delight. I think my angels found a way to achieve this for him. The work all hinges on the strength to achieve it no matter how hopeless the target is, they can achieve it through strength – not my own.
I don’t know why but I am have been seeing the lead woman actor in the TV show I have been watching Unfamiliar. Now a flash of her husband.
If anything these type of visions have been blocked before by my medication. Just another way that I am overcoming the olanzapine.
If they try to take me off olanzapine (the antipsychotic) it will be brutal so that is like the only time that I will need to be kept under restraint and under supervision, the perfect occasion during the take.
Another flash, this time of another actor in Unfamiliar: Andreas Pietschmann .
I am feeling like intercontinental plates are being moved away from my body. I haven’t felt this free in like ever.
Video pops up more often.
Both are flaky and are not persistent.
If they wait until I get video (4th dimensional real time video) it will be a game changer – I might know when and before they come to get me.
4: 58 pm
The electronic music has been playing all day as have I been writing – it is essential to me feeling good.
The last time I have been feeling free from body plates is after playing Starfield intensively for hours. It seems what I really need is intensive computer activity – which writing gives me.
I am feeling weak – shaking – I really need tofu right now with a smoothie – but you got it – I have run out of it. Tomorrow going to Costco is non-negotiable.
But I just realized dinner is coming up. I think I will make black beans with salsa.
Making more coffee, another 6 cups, decaf this time.
Founds a batch of bananas in the fridge – so like four of them later I am thinking I am getting on top of these shakes. I may need to get a fifth one.
Wouldn’t it be great if I get counter-intel on the operatives who want to take me? The female guide tells me “te ne mona” that is not to be done! With the video system.
My hands continue to shake but I am on the mend.
Another flash of Susanne Wolff, the wife in Unfamiliar. To me and obviously to others, I saw a lot devastation in her face. Living a hard life, the rosy cheeks, and the face.
I am reminded of an explanation that I was trying to make to an in-law relative, sometime in 2014 roughly, that the businesses in Germany use everyone they have, because of the small population there, even if it means third-rate people – the term I didn’t have then but heard from another executive later.
But apart from America, they are the next in line in power. The Antichrist will use Berlin as his political capital of the world.
But I thought to myself, about her, this is what it takes to make it in Germany – even if they have the better food than Americans do.
5:32 pm
I will try to post the rest of the day on my blog before I go to sleep. You got it – incase I am taken.
Let’s do it now.
8:51 pm
I came back from the walk.
As I was going for the walk, Halo Extended Mix by Jack Emiry was playing. I remember it saying “Tonight I am falling” and I thought that is it. Falling is my reference to dating. The only way it is going to happen is if they take me tonight.
Before then I was told it was going to be from my apartment. I didn’t rule out from the trail. In fact I thought it was after I returned from the trail and getting into my car.
The walk was okay. Although I would return to the car at dusk.
It occurred to me on the walk to do something I usually do on the walk but this time I almost forgot.
I closed my eyes and asked the 4th dimension what they thought about me getting taken.
I saw two hands clasped in a prayer position in darkness. They disappeared and I saw a woman’s face through a helmet plastic visor – she was wearing a lab suit that was pressurized it was made of plastic not the space kind. She disappeared and I saw a nuclear explosion.
Interpretations for me take time. I wasn’t sure what to make of this. So I closed my eyes again.
This time I saw a disappearing trail and then a fork in the road.
Suddenly it hit me what the first vision meant: pray that you will be taken because Earth is going to get hit with a serious COVID 2.0 maybe an Ebola kind. Nuclear explosions will come.
I will have to make a decision on the fork in the road, this I think when I am taken, if I will agree to something.
I walked some more and tried to open my app to record this. It kept crashing. It shocked me, are they trying to prevent me from writing anymore – will they take me before I get to my computer.
I briefly got a glimpse that I wrote earlier: “Soon apocalypse dom (house)” My apartment would be center of an apocalypse. I was repeatedly told there would be nuclear explosions here before.
Suddenly I was desperately wishing I could get back to my computer.
As was walking it was past sunset and I was getting a little nervous in the dark, in the forest.
Near the end Halo (the radio edit one, shorter than the first) started playing.
I was getting some information from it.
I was going to be taken through a portal (not a Stargate because that is for within the universe – portals are to different dimensions or universes) to Koldas which is in a different universe. To escape what is happening in this world – I think. The portal is in Neptune as described in Elena Danaan’s book called Koldas.
Suddenly my requests to save my phone and keep my possessions in my apartment disappeared in importance. It is like God mentions in the Bible: my life would be my prize.
As I kept driving back, one song seemed to have a lab siren blaring – likely warning me of a lab leak. It was a scary sound.
Then it hit me, if I get taken tonight, I would likely never date. Now this makes super sense, my libido is super 0.0 . I would do just fine never dating. And this is my key differentiator among all past world leaders, they dated and I will not. Is this the secret to success?????
It makes super sense to me that I will never date. My sexual resolution will never fail.
As I glance at the phone it is 9:11 pm.
So I might be gone, taken and never to return to here and maybe return as the Antichrist in a different body.
Despite my happiness earlier in dating – it is a relief to not have to.
So the fast is serving a purpose. As I think back to the channellers, one clearly or two mentioned that I essentially would date.
I hope they are wrong. The only difference with me and the previous world leaders so far is the non-dating part. I hope it stands because I just can’t date – no energy for it.
We’ll see if God has plans for me to date but I really really really hope not not not.
I was also told earlier that I am in time so that is a big relief.
Dating is what took out Elon Musk, Sam Altman, Oracle’s CEO. If it doesn’t kill you – which is rare if you’re not monogamous you might get crimes against your victims and they take you under and replace you with a clone. Not dating is the get out of jail card. You have no soul ties – and they kill you eventually.
But rising to power you need sexual energy and for me that has been through sex-from-a-distance non-contact sex. It rarely hurts you and you get sexual energy.
I don’t see a path with dating I think I would be taken and it would be cloned quickly.
So most of what I have been told could have been a lie at least about the dating part today and earlier.
So what is my future? Do I get taken? Is it all up to me to save myself?
What if the help does not arrive?
What if my guides, though look nice, might be of a negative kind that are prohibited from coming to me? But if they are in the New Earth (4th dimension) they would be within the solar system positive force blockade.
Suddenly my destiny is in my hands and things don’t look so certain.
Virginity is the get out of jail card that almost no other world leader has – well let’s say no world leader has.
Every things hangs on this. I’ve been through the hard part the rest should be easy.
The false prophet was predicted by Jesus to be Pope Francis. I remained thinking that that prophecy did not fail.
Now it makes sense, he might also come back, because there is a good chance he has never dated.
Benefits include, never losing video, getting HIV and really being free.